Memories

So Naomi is now a little over a month old. I can hardly believe she has been in our lives this long. But i know it goes by so fast and i have decided i want to start writing more about all my kids, and other things.
17 Years
This week has been a bit hard for me. Not only have i been dealing with a bit of the baby blues it is also the 17 year anniversary of my fathers passing. This day comes and goes every year and i always have teh same thing run in and out of my head all day... (and the days leading up and after this day) How can i miss someone i really dont remember. as sad as this makes to say i hardly remember my dad. I know stories that have been told to me and what not but i don't have very many of my own memories. I was to try and help my kids have memories of me. I want them to see LOTS of pictures of the things we have done. And as much as i dont like it i want them to have pictures of me and them during there child hood.. NO MATTER WHAT I THINK I LOOK LIKE i want them to remember who i was when i was gone.
i am not saying it is my dads fault i dont remember cause it isn't, i just have a very bad memory. But i just need to make sure that my kiddos know me. I also want to just have an outlet to write what i am thinking. Where no one can judge me.. (cause no one knows i post on this blog... ) also a time i can haev a min or two in the day to just reflect on life and take a break from house work and stuff..